It was one of those nights.
Nothing entirely epic or noteworthy took place, rather a string of beautiful, intimate moments like white lights twinkling on a dark strand. Moments that remind me to breathe in, live life fully and thank God for giving me such a precious gift.
Honestly, I wanted the night to be over before it ever started.
Like Cameron Diaz in the movie The Holiday I tried bawling my eyes out in the car on the drive home from work.
No tears. Not one.
I felt such a heaviness and restless spirit in me, but couldn’t conjure up a single tear. This was not looking good.
When I arrived at my apartment, I was greeted by some friends who stopped by to say goodbye before heading out to Cincinnati for the weekend.
I knew why they’d come.
They came to say goodbye to us for a weekend, but to my roommate it was goodbye for a while.
After all the events of that night, I found myself curled up on my roommate’s bed talking life.
I’ve spent many a moment in her bed or on our couch, at the kitchen table, swinging in the hammock, or sitting at the apartment upstairs talking life.
Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry, and on the best nights we do both.
We talk about what God is doing, how he’s actively moving in our midst. We remember the past fondly and look expectantly toward the future. When bitterness or discouragement arises, we combat it with words of life. Sometimes we have to do some yelling and standing on things first, but life still comes.
These nights have taken me to deep, intimate, and raw places. It’s not always pretty in the moment, but in the end I’m convinced it’s beautiful. These nights have helped shape who I am and how I view life. These nights have changed me.
And then it hit me.
We will never have tonight again.
This night was bittersweet. Saying goodbye isn’t easy, but it helps when you believe in the reason why. Saying goodbye is difficult because two things, woven together by God, are now being separated.
Saying goodbye is something I’ve done a lot lately.
But I stand behind the goodbyes. Because greater things are ahead.
So we will never have tonight again because things are changing, people are moving, lives are growing. Sons and daughters are stepping out into their calling.
But I can only believe that even better days are ahead.
All we had was all we needed then, we will never have tonight again.
-Sandra McCracken, We Will Never Have Tonight Again
So true, those nights keep me sane:)
i immediately recognized the title from that song. amen, and amen.
this kinda made me cry a little bit…good stuff, friend.